After too long of a creative hiatus, I have finally returned, with a writer's vengeance, to the blogging community... My fellow readers, I have lived and loved for the past, what, three YEARS (??) ... and I can now happily and finally guarantee you that I have BEGUN to find myself... NOT in a spiritual, religious, granola or hippy kinda way, not that there is ANYthing wrong with that, but in a more young woman/mother/human being loving and accepting herself kinda way.
You see, my dear readers, I had been LOOKING for love in all of the wrong places, as cliched as that may sound, and of course, I had not been able to find it... because this love was WITHIN me all along. This newfound love for myself has surfaced with the help from the man of my dreams and, thankfully, my reality.
Let me describe to you the last approximate twenty years of my life: I was always placing myself in a box... There was a box for work, and a box for my friends, and a box for the men in my life, and then eventually there was even a box for my son... you get the general idea, I was figuratively a Box Troll, for those of you who have seen the movie. Even though I had created these said boxes for myself, I was not happy with my life, nor the choices and decisions I was making. I wanted someone to love me even while I was unable to love myself.
And then one day, not so long ago, a man DID begin to love me... the REAL me... the charismatic, unapologetic, perhaps hyperactive, loud-mouthed, happy go lucky, empathetic, intelligent, yada yada yada... ME. I didn't fabricate a new box the day I met him, and he has never once asked me to alter what is essentially ME. Because of his blooming love for ME, I began to destroy all of the suffocating and imprisoning cubes that I had created in order to live a fulfilling life according to my own warped ideals and/or those belonging to others.
I am no longer living within the confines of multiple squares. Welcome to the Jungle Baby!! Please stay tuned for eventual blogs about the beautiful every day moments I share with strangers, my friends, my family members, trees, animals, ladybugs... etc. Bringing this blog back to its original concept of wanting to share MY little (meaning that I am SHORT, get it?) perspective on the mundane yet gorgeous experiences that I have daily.
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